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The white pill is the common end point of this journey. It is the point where enough ropes of bargaining are interwoven so that no one rope breaking causes collapse back into despair. It is the call to endure, plant seeds, and carry the hope light. This is acceptance that the world as we knew it is gone, but something new can arise. This is the restoration of hope again, and the desire to live fully. This is the full wholeness level achieved, about peace found internally, rather than through any system, and the power of being rooted.
This is the ability to say whatever my lot it is well with my soul. You are now firmly rooted in the change that you went through. You know your path, now follow it. It will be difficult, as the system still lives, but you see the beginnings of what lies ahead. Savour this moment.
It is not utopia, it is not the victory, but the inner peace. The black pill said "its all over" the white pill says "I can live". You stop bargaining and start to just be. This is an active being, not a passive one. But you have reclaimed your humanness, as a human being not a human doing for the machine. You are saying now "even if I don't" not "If I just"
Life still hurts, but the hurt is not the end. The system still grinds, collapse still looms, the weight is still pressing, but there is hope, you have your path, you bushwhacked enough to start it. You left anger and despair behind you and can now hold steady. An Ent, a walking tree. Moving to the goal, rooted strong enough to not break at the first sign of trouble.
This is not the happily ever after, this is the choice to carry the light daily. You have completed grief, savour it. Sit with it. But keep walking.
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